Sad

I have a friend who suffers from Muscular Dystrophy. I've only known her since 2010 and she has been in a state where she relies wholly on her husband for most every task. This couple is allowing me to stay in their Fifth wheel trailer until I move out of the country. For the past two years this is where I've been. To me, their generosity is the same thing as donating $9,600 because I have not had to pay rent. They are very kind, supportive and great at visiting and encouraging.

Sunday I got a phone call that she was gone. I was unaware of her hospital stay. Today was her memorial. As a believer I know that she is experiencing the fullness of our salvation...she is complete, whole and totally free from that with which she struggled here.

But today my heart is sad. She's gone. I won't see her again on this earth. No one gave me notice. No one told me that my last visit would be just that...my last. I was only out of town for two weeks.

My hope is in heaven, its in Jesus. Knowing that my friend is free is incredibly calming.

But I also see her husband hurting. And I hurt. I saw her family, hurting and still suffering from this disease. And I hurt. And I know if I ever step foot in their house again, she won't be there. And I'm sad.

I'm not hopeless, please don't misunderstand. My hope is not far away, I feel like. This life is short. Unfortunately there is still pain. And I struggle to grieve.

Please pray for my friend's husband and their family and friends. And pray for me too while you're at it, please.

Thinking of those I know who have lost spouses and praying for them...